i admit. i care far too much. i really should learn not to give a damn about a lot of things and have tried, but every time i attempt to be calloused or indifferent or even frank, i screw things up by saying things i really don't mean. i come across as hurtful, abrasive, rude and tactless, characteristics i was taught as a child were some of the worse things a civilized human can be or do to a fellow human. i end up feeling miserable, even more than the draining feeling of being emotionally available and empathetic. so i guess, it is just a matter of choosing which makes me feel less "worse".
so... i feel bad then that there are those who walk the path of betrayal. but i will feel worse to tell them that you reap what you sow. the universe always moves in a circle.
i feel bad that there are those who can't see the inherent kindness and strength in character of people i see. but i will feel worse if i share my mind about their narrowness and their bigoted ways.
i feel bad that there are those who ignore the purity of their natural, unembellished selves. but i will feel worse if i tell them that their need for attention only makes them look foolish and dreadfully unattractive.
i feel bad that there are those who settle for the easy, who sell themselves short and belittle their great abilities. but i will feel worse to tell them that they are cowards and lazy and will learn their hard lessons soon enough.
i feel bad for those who fall victims to the foolishness of the heart. but i will feel worse if i say that this is what we get for being too emotional.