not wanting to end my posts on a low note, lemme post this. not really a fan of hip hop but this one really got me tapping my feet.
was browsing for youtube vids to distract me by when i chanced upon this one. at first i though this was another timbaland collaboration since it does have that familiar beat. you could only imagine my disbelief when i found out that this is completely ASIAN! korean to be exact. galing!!!! i love it! funny, if you listen carefully, you could catch a few instances wherein the boys have some difficulty enunciating some of the english words. o well, galing pa rin! :)
sigh... mga kampon kong mga chinks!!!! wassup!!!??? when are we coming up with stuff like this, yo? :) enjoy nalang muna. so beautiful by korean boy band big bang.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
inis at galit
literally translated "irritated and mad", this somehow is a mood i am finding myself in quite regularly nowadays. most especially when so-called friends are involved.
chatting with kuya one dinner time regarding a pal whose name he has become familiar with. i asked him if a friendship really does exist if the other party never seems to be emotionally available when the need arises for a "shoulder to cry on", or even rest your head on at least? it has been my observation that on the moments when said pal needed company, out of loyalty and good faith, i always rise to the occasion. however, on the very rare occasions wherein i needed such gestures to be reciprocated, said pal never seems to be available.
kuya being my ever objective pillar of sanity and reason was clear, though now that i'm writing about it, the answer seems to be pretty obvious as well. i have stumbled upon, yet again, at another emotional vampire.
in my state of disinhibition last night, i emailed the said pal stating (not complaining, as vikki would always put it) my honest feelings on the matter. i have been having second thoughts whether or not it was wise to gamble a possible friendship on things as trivial as this. either it was because of my lack of sleep or the fact that my superego really didn't give a shit anymore that i clicked SEND after writing a very long letter. i guess the word there to consider is "possible". it wasn't that much of a friendship if the care was only uni-directional, was it? also, there is nothing trivial about the matter. emotional parasitism is never a pleasant thing, especially if you are the one on the receiving end.
alleged pal was prompt to reply, something i found quite surprising since i often have to wait hours whenever i send messages. email reply stated that "pareho lang tayong malungkot". email reply also stated that i was invited to watch a movie but i chose to decline the offer. ok. (deep breaths... and GO!) first, i cannot understand what connection there is between me asking for support and us being simultaneously depressed. should i? would it actually kill a person if i by some self preserving drive ask that i be shown an iota of attention? would it actually kill a person to ask someone to be altruistic, to me of all people, after all i have done in the past? also, when i made it VERY apparent (i have learned that subtle hints don't work with this person) that i was sad and in need of some comfort, i didn't really ask for uber pampering and consolation. to be honest, a simple word of encouragement could have sufficed. how much effort does it really take to do something like that, i wonder? a few taps on the keypad, then send. not really like moving the sierra madre mountain range you know..... regarding the movie invite... i originally obliged. i only backed out since i discovered there were also family relatives in tow. let's see, MORE emotional vampires? thanks, but really... no, thanks. i'd rather score my wrist with a blunt spoon and listen to mystica singing opera.
so now here i am. worked up and quite so "inis at galit".
chatting with kuya one dinner time regarding a pal whose name he has become familiar with. i asked him if a friendship really does exist if the other party never seems to be emotionally available when the need arises for a "shoulder to cry on", or even rest your head on at least? it has been my observation that on the moments when said pal needed company, out of loyalty and good faith, i always rise to the occasion. however, on the very rare occasions wherein i needed such gestures to be reciprocated, said pal never seems to be available.
kuya being my ever objective pillar of sanity and reason was clear, though now that i'm writing about it, the answer seems to be pretty obvious as well. i have stumbled upon, yet again, at another emotional vampire.
in my state of disinhibition last night, i emailed the said pal stating (not complaining, as vikki would always put it) my honest feelings on the matter. i have been having second thoughts whether or not it was wise to gamble a possible friendship on things as trivial as this. either it was because of my lack of sleep or the fact that my superego really didn't give a shit anymore that i clicked SEND after writing a very long letter. i guess the word there to consider is "possible". it wasn't that much of a friendship if the care was only uni-directional, was it? also, there is nothing trivial about the matter. emotional parasitism is never a pleasant thing, especially if you are the one on the receiving end.
alleged pal was prompt to reply, something i found quite surprising since i often have to wait hours whenever i send messages. email reply stated that "pareho lang tayong malungkot". email reply also stated that i was invited to watch a movie but i chose to decline the offer. ok. (deep breaths... and GO!) first, i cannot understand what connection there is between me asking for support and us being simultaneously depressed. should i? would it actually kill a person if i by some self preserving drive ask that i be shown an iota of attention? would it actually kill a person to ask someone to be altruistic, to me of all people, after all i have done in the past? also, when i made it VERY apparent (i have learned that subtle hints don't work with this person) that i was sad and in need of some comfort, i didn't really ask for uber pampering and consolation. to be honest, a simple word of encouragement could have sufficed. how much effort does it really take to do something like that, i wonder? a few taps on the keypad, then send. not really like moving the sierra madre mountain range you know..... regarding the movie invite... i originally obliged. i only backed out since i discovered there were also family relatives in tow. let's see, MORE emotional vampires? thanks, but really... no, thanks. i'd rather score my wrist with a blunt spoon and listen to mystica singing opera.
so now here i am. worked up and quite so "inis at galit".
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
funny!
still riding on the batman wave, i stumbled on this video by accident (well duh, i doubt i'm dumb enough to stumble in purpose... but then again, never say never). despite heath's stellar performance in DARK KNIGHT, people have unfortunately neglected the equally great portrayal of christian bale as the caped crusader. it need not be mentioned that of all the actors who played the batman, bale is probably the best. i remember me and my brother having this in-depth discussion on the topic while over our scrumptious thai dinner. between keaton, kilmer, clooney and bale, bale by FAR epitomized how the batman should be: sexy; smart; athletic; mysterious; conflicted; complex; terrifying; and well, sexy :) anyway... enjoy the clip and ponder also on the unpopular sentiments about the movie...
also, the author of the clip, i discovered, had a compilation of parodies wherein he sings to movie themes. here is a sample where he sings to the theme of the batman movie. check out his site for more hilarious takes.
also, the author of the clip, i discovered, had a compilation of parodies wherein he sings to movie themes. here is a sample where he sings to the theme of the batman movie. check out his site for more hilarious takes.
bon voyage
my mind is a complete mess right now. it is partly due to lack of sleep, partly from my body still metabolizing the alcohol i drank last saturday, and partly due to my psyche working overtime to repress my current state of sadness and separation anxiety... which i am blaming for my recent insomnia attack.
vikki left for turkey to be in the company of her BF today. spent the afternoon with her yesterday with friends but decided to cut it short when she invited me to have dinner with her family. i thought that it was better that she be with her family last, without distractions.
life is quiet again. it is quite unsettling i think, for despite the occasional chaos that vikki contributes in my life, those moments were some of the most memorable. i miss them and i am already missing her. i am missing her high pitched voice. missing her out of this world views of how the world works (or how it should). most of all, i am missing her company and the closeness of only one who knows you very well can offer. she will be back on december with the oz and i can only wait till then. i wish her all the happiness in this chapter of her life. may all the joy i am channeling towards her dispel all sense of sadness that may come her way from being so far away from home and family.
take care vikki, i am only an email, YM, or skype away.
vikki left for turkey to be in the company of her BF today. spent the afternoon with her yesterday with friends but decided to cut it short when she invited me to have dinner with her family. i thought that it was better that she be with her family last, without distractions.
life is quiet again. it is quite unsettling i think, for despite the occasional chaos that vikki contributes in my life, those moments were some of the most memorable. i miss them and i am already missing her. i am missing her high pitched voice. missing her out of this world views of how the world works (or how it should). most of all, i am missing her company and the closeness of only one who knows you very well can offer. she will be back on december with the oz and i can only wait till then. i wish her all the happiness in this chapter of her life. may all the joy i am channeling towards her dispel all sense of sadness that may come her way from being so far away from home and family.
take care vikki, i am only an email, YM, or skype away.
Monday, July 28, 2008
the dark nut, este, night, ESTE, knight! (part 2)
nothing rather noteworthy happened on sunday expect me FINALLY getting to see batman: the dark knight. kuya has been raving about it, and basically every single soul i bump into who have seen the movie. not watching it was simply not an option.i have to say, the movie is indeed impressive in so many levels. first thing's first. heath's take on the character of the joker was very well executed, leading us see the joker's character in a whole new level. he was darker, more malevolent, more INSANE, sans the usual clown get-up. i wouldn't totally agree with my brother saying that he was better than jack nicholson but his performance is definitely noteworthy. you can't really compare the two in my opinion since it's like 2 different jokers. heath's joker was a more realistic joker, how one would be if he really existed, if something so insanely evil was walking in our midst. tim burton's joker was a fantastic one, an homage to the comic book character, a reinvention of the joker back to the time of adam west but not veering too far from it, thereby, nicholson's portrayal was spectacular as well.
i liked how the film was made and how the story went. the plot was very well written, the lines we not cheesy and the acting, well, very very good. what especially helped, and i hope i was not the only one to notice was the score, the orchestral accompaniment. it was not too showy and yet present throughout the entire movie. it carried the mood and kept the excitement up. honestly, i feel chill when i remember it in my head, like an intoxicating buzz.
over all, i cannot have enough praises for the movie and i sure hope that they still have plans of continuing with other movies of the same caliber. sad that this is the movie where heath passed shortly after. immortalized in film and in memories of his genius performance, his shoes will be a monstrous task to fill.
dinner at people's palace to satiate my brother's craving for thai food after the movie.
cute caucasian fellow caught my eye, most especially since he kept glancing at our table. i hope it was not because we were two people eating enough food for 4! hehehehe.
the dark nut, este, night, ESTE, knight! (part 1)
a little bit of contrived comedy to start off my post and the week.
mom is stranded in caticlan on route from boracay. they were supposed to fly out last night but due to bad weather and looming nightmares of MV princess of the stars, no one was willing to risk it even if the storm was not as strong as Frank. got a call from her that cebu pacific booked them in this inn near the airport that had no a/c in the rooms. mom can be a cowgirl naman so i'm sure she's long suffering and can take the minor inconveniences of being NOT IN THE CITY. i sure hope the other people in her troupe are as gung-ho. well, we shall soon find out. it's still raining and mom has fears of flying especially domestic, with their rickety planes and bad food (if any). i'm expecting to hear earfuls when they arrive later sometime before lunch.
i had probably a truly eventful weekend if i may say so myself. saturday started with a call from my glorious lola asking if i could spare time to see her. apparently, she was washing her hand and as she was flicking them dry, she flicked too hard that one of her fingers dislocated! she assured me that she was fine besides a bit of pain and swelling. the finger reduced itself but she's complaining that moving it hurts and would like me to give my expert opinion on the matter. drive like the wind naman lola mo (referring to me). my grandma kasi has a penchant of downplaying the severity of situations. blame it on my family's habit of not wanting to inconvenience anyone of our problems. though i was pretty sure that her incident was not that serious, for both of our peace of minds, it was best for me to check. thankfully so, it was nothing a bit of icing and athletic taping can't handle. she now has a temporarily splinted "fuck you" finger, hehehe, well, i always knew my grandma was a toughy!
next in my saturday agenda was site visit. met up with des, my fabric wall contractor for lunch. they were installing my fabric wall today and i wanted to be there to see it go up, just in case. good thing i was since there were issues that needed my immediate action on (we ran out of fabric for one) as well as minor changes that we addressed on site. at the end of the day, my fabric wall looks FAB and i can't wait for my lamps to go up to complete the look!!! great work des!!!! bravo!
sweaty, dusty, sticky and haggard from site, i had to do a quick makeover for dinner with my client. she's a great cook and richie and i have been hearing tales of her excellent thai cooking (my client is not thai, she's SWISS), so much so that we could not help ourselves but ask if she could find it in her heart to have us sample some. needless to say, she was more than happy to oblige. dinner was set saturday at 7pm at her place in the fort. i changed my shirt, waxed up my hair and made sure i had potent perfume! was supposed to wash up at the toilet on site but the building locks up the washrooms after 5 to conserve water... hence, PAGPAG had to do.
the dinner was AMAZING!!!!! we had thai beef salad, tom yum, green chicken curry, pineapple fried rice (IN THE PINEAPPLE!!), and steamed garoupa. they were quite amazed as to how much i was eating since i was already on my THIRD helping when i started to slow down. my gluttony EXPOSED, how embarrassing. but how could have i resisted? i have been starving the entire day and have been sniffing rugby for 7 hours due to my workers fixing my fabric wall. of course the food being absolutely delicious was of no help. we capped the dinner off with some wine. though i knew i had absolutely no tolerance for alcohol, i thought that it wouldn't hurt to have a bit. i was extremely full anyway so i was sure absorption would be kept at bay. i was so wrong.
in no less time of my having my first glass did the room start to spin. i felt flushed and my feet feet swollen. everyone was looking at me since i looked like a ripe tomato apparently. i felt red and i was. i was poured a second glass but was only able to drink half. why i didn't stop at glass no. 1, well, my decision making skills was impaired obviously. i can't really say if i was behaving unusually. all i can do was focus all my energies to keeping myself from tipping over when i stood up. we called it a night at midnight. we thanked our host and bid her goodbye. walking was a bit difficult and i thank goodness that i was so red that ppl hardly noticed (obviously distracted with the site of me being so red!). the weather was horrible outside, the storm was in full swing and it was raining cats and dogs and practically every other domestic animal. now, driving in the rain with little visibility was bad enough, try doing it TIPSY!!! i must have looked like a schizophrenic while driving since i was chanting out loud every single driving rule i could think off to prevent me from dying (eg. stay on your lane, maintain your speed, brake slowly, yada, yada) and praying at the same time (lord... keep the idiota pedestrians in tonight!!!!). i got home in one piece thankfully. i promised myself, i will never drink again. i also have my allergic wheals to remind me of that promise.
saturday down, sunday to go! major updates na to!!!
mom is stranded in caticlan on route from boracay. they were supposed to fly out last night but due to bad weather and looming nightmares of MV princess of the stars, no one was willing to risk it even if the storm was not as strong as Frank. got a call from her that cebu pacific booked them in this inn near the airport that had no a/c in the rooms. mom can be a cowgirl naman so i'm sure she's long suffering and can take the minor inconveniences of being NOT IN THE CITY. i sure hope the other people in her troupe are as gung-ho. well, we shall soon find out. it's still raining and mom has fears of flying especially domestic, with their rickety planes and bad food (if any). i'm expecting to hear earfuls when they arrive later sometime before lunch.
i had probably a truly eventful weekend if i may say so myself. saturday started with a call from my glorious lola asking if i could spare time to see her. apparently, she was washing her hand and as she was flicking them dry, she flicked too hard that one of her fingers dislocated! she assured me that she was fine besides a bit of pain and swelling. the finger reduced itself but she's complaining that moving it hurts and would like me to give my expert opinion on the matter. drive like the wind naman lola mo (referring to me). my grandma kasi has a penchant of downplaying the severity of situations. blame it on my family's habit of not wanting to inconvenience anyone of our problems. though i was pretty sure that her incident was not that serious, for both of our peace of minds, it was best for me to check. thankfully so, it was nothing a bit of icing and athletic taping can't handle. she now has a temporarily splinted "fuck you" finger, hehehe, well, i always knew my grandma was a toughy!
next in my saturday agenda was site visit. met up with des, my fabric wall contractor for lunch. they were installing my fabric wall today and i wanted to be there to see it go up, just in case. good thing i was since there were issues that needed my immediate action on (we ran out of fabric for one) as well as minor changes that we addressed on site. at the end of the day, my fabric wall looks FAB and i can't wait for my lamps to go up to complete the look!!! great work des!!!! bravo!
sweaty, dusty, sticky and haggard from site, i had to do a quick makeover for dinner with my client. she's a great cook and richie and i have been hearing tales of her excellent thai cooking (my client is not thai, she's SWISS), so much so that we could not help ourselves but ask if she could find it in her heart to have us sample some. needless to say, she was more than happy to oblige. dinner was set saturday at 7pm at her place in the fort. i changed my shirt, waxed up my hair and made sure i had potent perfume! was supposed to wash up at the toilet on site but the building locks up the washrooms after 5 to conserve water... hence, PAGPAG had to do.
the dinner was AMAZING!!!!! we had thai beef salad, tom yum, green chicken curry, pineapple fried rice (IN THE PINEAPPLE!!), and steamed garoupa. they were quite amazed as to how much i was eating since i was already on my THIRD helping when i started to slow down. my gluttony EXPOSED, how embarrassing. but how could have i resisted? i have been starving the entire day and have been sniffing rugby for 7 hours due to my workers fixing my fabric wall. of course the food being absolutely delicious was of no help. we capped the dinner off with some wine. though i knew i had absolutely no tolerance for alcohol, i thought that it wouldn't hurt to have a bit. i was extremely full anyway so i was sure absorption would be kept at bay. i was so wrong.
in no less time of my having my first glass did the room start to spin. i felt flushed and my feet feet swollen. everyone was looking at me since i looked like a ripe tomato apparently. i felt red and i was. i was poured a second glass but was only able to drink half. why i didn't stop at glass no. 1, well, my decision making skills was impaired obviously. i can't really say if i was behaving unusually. all i can do was focus all my energies to keeping myself from tipping over when i stood up. we called it a night at midnight. we thanked our host and bid her goodbye. walking was a bit difficult and i thank goodness that i was so red that ppl hardly noticed (obviously distracted with the site of me being so red!). the weather was horrible outside, the storm was in full swing and it was raining cats and dogs and practically every other domestic animal. now, driving in the rain with little visibility was bad enough, try doing it TIPSY!!! i must have looked like a schizophrenic while driving since i was chanting out loud every single driving rule i could think off to prevent me from dying (eg. stay on your lane, maintain your speed, brake slowly, yada, yada) and praying at the same time (lord... keep the idiota pedestrians in tonight!!!!). i got home in one piece thankfully. i promised myself, i will never drink again. i also have my allergic wheals to remind me of that promise.
saturday down, sunday to go! major updates na to!!!
Friday, July 25, 2008
jaw dropping hilarious!!!
i received this forwarded email from a good friend somewhere in the desert. i have no idea who this person is but one thing i have to say... SHE IS JUST TOO FUNNY!!!!!
either the subject is just playing with those poses or she has been severely misinformed by reading far too many fashion magazines (far worse, she really looks like that even OFF CAM)! me thinks it's the "severely misinformed" bit since some of the other subjects of the pictures below seem to have caught on with her rather peculiar display (see pics 3, 6 and 10!), then again, i would think that since they compiled the pics below, they definitely wanted to drive a point across. anyway, if by some unforeseen chance this post of this innocent by-stander finds its way back to the subjects of the photos below, please know that all of you have definitely brightened my day, enough for a month or even more, i reckon. also, do know that i am not laughing at you but WITH you.... photog's here, quick!!! everyone say "queso de BOLAH!!!!" bwahahaha, GOD, what did you guys take in that party!!!!????
either the subject is just playing with those poses or she has been severely misinformed by reading far too many fashion magazines (far worse, she really looks like that even OFF CAM)! me thinks it's the "severely misinformed" bit since some of the other subjects of the pictures below seem to have caught on with her rather peculiar display (see pics 3, 6 and 10!), then again, i would think that since they compiled the pics below, they definitely wanted to drive a point across. anyway, if by some unforeseen chance this post of this innocent by-stander finds its way back to the subjects of the photos below, please know that all of you have definitely brightened my day, enough for a month or even more, i reckon. also, do know that i am not laughing at you but WITH you.... photog's here, quick!!! everyone say "queso de BOLAH!!!!" bwahahaha, GOD, what did you guys take in that party!!!!????
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